Human Do Change…

There tend to be ups and downs in life for every human on earth.  Be it if you are rich or poor, nice looking or ugly, fat or thin….*and the list goes on and on…

Some people become  emotional…..

Some will become stronger….

As for me…. i am in stage of mess. I have too many things in plan and it seems like things are not going according as plan… Is this because i am losing patient in life or my expectations are too high? My mind are almost blank and i cant tell what is right or wrong anymore.

Challengers in life are so great that i don seems to be able to handle anymore.  I need some strength but who can i go to for that?

I feel like screaming out loud….

I feel like crying out loud….

I feel like…….

Reach out for Heavenly Father….

My Heavenly Father…!!! Help!!!!Please………*beg…

Dear Heavenly Father~ Please recuse me from the Satan that drew me away from you…

Please forgive me and give me the strength to face the challenge that you set for me. 

*Tearing~
I admit that i have changed….for better or for worst… i really have no idea at all! Probably only GOD knows…

For some close frds, who felt that my attitude is very different from last time…. Please do give me some time to get over things….

Blank!

I have alot of stuffs to update! And YES! Alot!

From the day starting from the meet up at Kallang Peek A Boo, to…the cinema @ GV Grand and lots more!

But as usual….my mind went super blank when i am infront of my netbook with this wordpress page on my tab.  I wonder is it becos of my age or my brain, my memories are failing on me? I start to wonder if someone did invent a system to defrag our brain for all the unnecessary stuffs to be probably archive somewhere…hahaha wishful thinking ya!

And recently, there is a few things that happen and its kinda depressing especially when it do involve people whom you genuinely care.  But i am trying to let the matter go and pretend that i dont know anything at all. Like i said before and i am gonna say it again now….

* I choose to keep quiet doesnt mean that i dont know anything..*

For i am also a human and i can feel too….

Hmmm….shall stop my updatings on emotional issues.

Here is a little updates of my lil rascal…

She is now….

walking well although she tend to fall on her bum at times…

say a few more words like….

*paa paa (scare in chinese)

*where…

*no….

*beat…. etc

Her first molar (left bottom) arrived and now came the top left side.  And this explains why she is so cranky at night! * sigh!

Getting really really very mischievous and i sometimes feel like asking the creator of ANGRY BIRD to create another game call….ANGRY MAMA! hahaha

Oh and she started the nonsenses thing call CHOOSY! And this gave me a terrible time….!!! Which left me cursing and swearing!

I guess i really need to build up my patience patience patience!

Okay la. will try to update more when i can! got to catch some beauty slp else i will be heading back to China really really soon!

 

 

 

Updates

I do have lots of updates to do!

Starting from my lil dearie sunshine milestone reaching to another stage…to her 1st Birthday Big Bash…. etc etc… *depress~

Seriously, i think GOD is giving me a crash course to built me to be a stronger person… Why would i say that?

Well….after settling some issues (which doesnt seems to be able to solve…) my lil sunshine become unwell….fever going up and down and that obviously made us very worried! Lil sunshine never had temp that high!And her cough just gt worst!

The next morning brought her to GP and in the noon to KKH cos the temp wasn’t controlled. Poor hunnie was crying most of the time. Heartpain is the only word i could find to describe my feeling. I cant stop blaming myself for the cause of her like that…… Numerous “if only…” came repeating in my mind! But what done cannot be undone anymore! All i have to do is to PRAY! Thats also the time…. i start feeling unwell!

The next day passed~~~with much torture as i was shivering in pain with fever going up to 39 degree!

Lil sunshine woke up with fever still and cough seems getting worst! She threw up after we force her to drink water….. We decided to seek another GP advise! Surprisingly, she had no fever there but the min she is home…..fever came Gave her medication and observe her…..She threw up so many time cos we force and force and force….. We have no other choices cos sunshine is so stubborn and refuse to drink a single sip of water! I knew that this will bring fear to her but i really have no other alternative choices!

All these days…..I couldnt help it but cry!

Deep in my heart!

GOD if you have to pick someone to torture….

PICK ME!

And not my innocent sunshine!

I finally gave in to antibotic! Sunshine cough is bad and its really really bad and her fever temp stuck at 38 degree!

Seek my GP help and we gave her the medication when home….

Today~ The Happiest thing is that…

HER FEVER SUBSIDE!!!

Cough~ Not the bad already but still phlegmy!

And she is walking and crawling around though a bit slow cos she haven’t been drinking well!

THANK YOU HEAVENLY FATHER!

Pray Pray Pray Pray Pray Pray hard that my sunshine fully recover!

A pic of my Lil sunshine days after the idiotic virus!!!

May U Rest In Peace

My knowledge of u is rather minimum cos I seldom see u or talk to u.

Beside all the free rides on the buses we used to have when the kiddos are still young… And the time I saw u siting all alone at the bus interchange. I don remember any other things about
you.

Now that you are gone (so sudden!), I seriously can’t help but do feel upset cos u are part of the family.

May you rest in peace.

Fell Sick

It been some time since i really fell so sick.

It started on a Saturday night and i thought i will be fine after a good night rest. Only to woke up vomiting and shivering.  Its a rather cool weather and i thought it may be bcos of the cool breeze.  But i am totally wrong!!! I was wearing a thick sweater and i am still shivering under my blanket! And the wrong thing to have is….I AM ALL ALONE AT HOME and i have to take care of lil dearie who is at the stage of being very active. I almost wanted to die. I cried non stop and it seems that li dearie just cant stop being mischievous! Argh! HELPPPPP! Thats what i shouted!  And most of the time i am just simply worried about lil dearie safety cos she is climbing up and down non stop and i am in the mist of fainting! I vomited a total of 3-4 times and i fever went as high as 38.9! After the whole day of endurance, i gave up and went to see a doctor at the nearby clinic! I was given an injection and medication.  Thank GOD that everything is better now and i do hope that i can recover fast enough else i might spread the virus to my lil dearie and i will not be able to carryy on my job well!

Got to end now as my lil dearie woke up!

Happy 2011!!!

Before I start on my long winded blog (probably!).. Let me just wish all my lovely families and friends out there… A Happy Happy 2011!!!

With my sincere blessing (which every alphabets with a meaning…) Friends whom I have their mobile nos would have receive my blessing in their mobile…

B-egin our year wit
L-ove in our heart
E-xpect blessings
S-hare goodness
S-hine like the sun
I-nspire some one
N-ever forget that
G-od is with us.

No special celebration today…but I am glad to have my Lil sweetheart with me though she is extremely mischievous today. Lil sweetheart seems to be so much more excited than me as she started screaming since 10.30pm and we were so worried that someone may lodge a complain! Hahaha and guess what? She is showing me the 1 sign whenever they say 2011!!! *cute! Now that she finally fall aslp, I thought of doing a quick update on my blog!

2010 have been a rough year for me. Just hope that this new year will b a better one as life would b more n more challenging as time passes! I also do hope to see some improvement in my wish & resolution list.

And of cos “those” issues to be resolved real soon so that I can start planning on the next stage! (Close friends would probably know, what I am talking about! Hahaha!)

Guess I should just stop here! Else I will be a zombie CA later! Haha!

Happy New Year!!! (again!)

Depress!

Lately I have been feeling very depress and all negative
came flashing in my mind. I am been biting my teeth tight and
keeping my fingers crossed, hoping that i will not lost myself.
Keeping quiet doesn’t mean that I don care…just that even if I am
gonna voice out…will it be even noted? I guess not…!!! So
what’s the use of voicing out? I better keep my mouth shut like a
mute since whatever I say will be like the noises out on the
street… I tried very hard to give the best to all of you but it
seems like I am taken advantage of everything. I choose to cover
one eye and all I hope is all of you to be happy. But all I get at
the end is insults and hurting words. I have never ask for anything
back and that of cos includes hurting words for sure. Deep in me
there is a scar… Instead of lightening it.. It’s now a wound and
it’s bleeding… One fine day when the bleeding stop…You will
probably know that…that’s the day! Anyway, I m so useless and
couldn’t play the roles in my life well….I am probably a person
to be forgotten!

Updates Updates

Life have been really challenging lately having to toggle
between work and family. In the very beginning, i think i did
neglected my Lil sweetheart but of cos this didn’t pull us
apart. Instead, now she is very ‘stuck’ to me. Came across
the photo-shoot promotion in Today’s Motherhood and decide to bring
Lil sweetheart there to give it a try. Just praying hard that
her mood will be great on that day. I am so excited about it and
look forward to it so much. whoopee! As the package consist of a
personal outfit, i did spend some time selecting her clothing. The
day came as we head down to the studio on the 15th Dec along with
Mommy Wendy and her lil love, Benson! Was planning for a
quiet ride on the train but the weather spoil the whole plan. Out
of no choice, i called and book a taxi as we head down town.
The weather is a total screwed up! All plans changed becos of that! But I m glad that lil sweetheart’s mood is fantastic before n during the photo-shoot!!! Can’t wait for the photos to b ready!!! The sneak preview of the photos is making me excited!!! Lolx

The next big thing that kept me really busy sourcibg around is my Lil sweetheart’s 1st birthday which is coming real soon…Yes!!! Time flies and she is almost 1 year old! Am so excited and sure looking forward
too! A look at the checklist, all the stuffs are more or less confirm already. As some of the things will only require 1 week before to reserved. But the most important things is settled. Anything for my lil sweetheart is sure to worth it!

A little update on the progress of my sweetheart: She is having the
capability to crawl very fast & steadily, stand with the support of anything around (but must be stable), stand without support for a couple of seconds, eating more solid food

With her upper tooth seem to be appearing soon!

A little pic of my
lil naughty sweetheart! A photo taken on my bd this year! Oh ya!
Bedok Point is operating already. But kinda disappointed cos
most of them are F&B! The shopping areas are limited.
There is no supermart unlike Centerpoint, Compass Point, East
Point…etc. The only so call convenient stall is Cheers!
This is definitely not a place for shopping but eating. So
anyone coming over to the mall, give me a buzz ok? We go kopi!!!

*Smile*

Among the gloomy face, appears a smiling face… And thats probably mine.

Life have been really challenging lately after my lil dearie’s check up. The nurses and doctor are warning me about her tip toe condition which worries me.  After consideration, the decision is to buy her a playpen.  Heading down to Parenthood Fair with disappointment cos there is not much great deals and the Sitex is killing us cos there is no parking space, unless we park all the way @ Max Pavilion. And of cos the weather kills leads us to frustration…

Went down to Baby Hyperstore & Baby Kingdom with disappointment again cos the price is kinda pricey! And lil dearie actually cried after i try putting her in one of the playpen to test.

Saturday, meet up with mummy Flo & Wen’s family, for the fair. Didnt manage to get anything again… Which after that i head to Giant to stock up lil dearie fm since the deal is good. Thanks Flo for sending me there and sending me home. Not forgetting Wen & Ben who came to fetch me to the fair.

Thank you so much!!! 

Sunday is a really tiring day! Was in Tampines almost the whole day, moving around the 3 shopping mall! Price checking @ Mums & Babes, United Kids, Kiddy Palace, Toys R Us and even BHG for the playpen & playard!  Its a super tough decision cos there is pros and cons of both items. We finally come to the conclusion that if she is not gonna cry when i put her in the playpen in Mums & Babes, we will finalized in that. hahaha

Yesterday, a Monday!

Went central to look for playpen additional mattress….The weather is initially scorning! But was very surprise to know that it eventually start to pour…. Out of no choice, we decided to walk all the way back to the interchange to take a bus instead of walking home.  On the route back, we met a few nice passerby who helped us with the stroller…. Though i don know you, i would like to say thanks to you for ur help… I always thought there is no one like u guys!

Items i ordered from oversea is here already! But i am so disappointed when the size and design was sent wrongly! Pissed off but manage to get some rectification on it!

Hmmm! Does that mean i should change supplier?

 

 

 

 

Growing Up Stages

When i look at my lil dearie…i cant help but smile…Of cos there are times when she made me really scream and cried…but no matter what…she is still the lovely darling of mine.

So far she is progressing very well….

@ the age of coming to 9 months old…

She is already crawling forward and backwards steady and fast

Sitting up by herself and rather stable

Grabbing anything firm to stand up with support

Clapping her hands

With the 2 litte teeth she had… she is already biting me whenever i breastfeed her. hahaha! Sometimes i wonder if she is drinking milk or my blood!!! haha!

Am so glad that she is able to socialise with people around too.

Looking forward to more and more challenging progress from lil sweetheart..

Standing with support of the sofa

Smiling happily in the nursing room in BHG Bugis!