Battle

Its just like a horrible battle…. The emotional torture is really horrifying.  Especially when all the things came clashing all at once.  I became victim of certain things which i doesnt want to disclose it here and there are people who try to play victim and of cos try to get me into deeper trouble….   Wow! This is really a great challenge for me.  Its even more exciting than the Amazing Race i guess.  Cos the impact is so great and this may result in me giving up totally.  I even come to the extend of deleting my whatsapp group with my cellgroup sisters and i missed out my triplet prayer that very Friday…..I simply couldnt control my tears at all and all i did was tearing non stop… Negative thoughts swam around in my head and occupied almost 90% of my head!

That very day, i missed my usual meals and ate very little for my usual heavy breakfast and smile weakly… At time, i smile and laugh but deep in me, i am flooded with my own tears…. I started asking myself…. Is my faith for GOD too weak thus the evil spirit could cast this big impact on me so badly. I start to question myself again and again.  Decided to go out for a walk with my mom and my gal on Saturday.  Bought some stuff for myself.  *Smile.  though i regret not buying something else…..!!!

Despite the foul mood i decided to log on to the Lighthouse website to listen to to Pastor Rony Tan live.  Not only it enlightens me, i felt so good and decided that i really got to embrace myself up and FIGHT THIS BATTLE AS….

I DOESNT WANT TO BE LABELLED AS A LOSER! I WANT EVERYONE TO BE PROUD OF ME AND THAT INCLUDES LORD GOD, JESUS!

Amen!

But of cos, i am really thankful to people who really care about me and have been praying for me…

Thank you all.

As Life Goes On~

If Only Life Could Be As Colourful

For the past few weeks, challenges have been pouring onto me and it almost drown me.  But THANK GOD i have U and not forgetting my love ones…who are with me…You all are the one who kept me strong till now…. During the past few weeks , i manage to see more ugly people doing ugly things…. and it is rather disappointed cos these are the ones whom you once regard them as FRIENDS…. Disappointments starts to pour in….Just as i was about to give up…. i decided to pray to GOD for strength and wisdom to face the issue.  GOD eventually answered my prayers one by one… slowly and steadily… *THANK U GOD~ Though the route down the road may be a little tougher but with your wise guidance, i am sure i will be well guided.  For i know that, what i am having now…. is becos GOD has a plan for me in my life…

The most important thing now is to keep a positive thinking and NEVER a negative….

 I shall NOT allow any evil spirit and Satan to override my thinking and affect me in anyway…. Thus i am sharing one very import verse my church have been highlighted…  

Lets pray~